‘Golden Bachelor’ Gerry Turner Had Suicidal Thoughts After Theresa Nist Divorce

Gerry Turner is opening up concerning the brutal public backlash after his cut up with Theresa Nist … admitting the ‘Golden Bachelor’ heartbreak hit him so laborious, he spiraled into suicidal ideas.

TMZ has obtained an besides of Gerry’s upcoming memoir, “Golden Years” … and he writes that after saying his divorce simply 3 months in final yr, the damaging response acquired so brutal he hit all-time low … writing, “One night, while I was lying in bed and staring at the ceiling, it all became too much, and for the briefest moment, I thought about putting a gun to my head.”

In the excerpt, Gerry explains he’s all the time had a “marathon mentality” — pushing by way of ache understanding it will cross. But he admitted that on the time, the agony felt infinite.

Gerry says the darkish ideas vanished simply as rapidly … as a result of he instantly pictured his daughters, Jenny and Angie, and knew he might by no means put them by way of that. He clarifies the second wasn’t about desirous to die … however extra about wishing he might simply disappear.

And that’s precisely what he says he craved as quickly as the general public scrutiny began piling on … writing, “I dreamed of renting a room in some remote part of Alaska no one had ever heard of and not coming out for a month” — a shock for him, since “he had by no means been the depressed sort.”

Gerry additionally will get candid concerning the behind-the-scenes fallout with Theresa … saying they’d a pact to protect one another from bogus headlines, however he says she broke the deal by placing out her personal assertion simply days later.

Still, he’s promising the total journey — from actuality TV fame to heartbreak, and the teachings he’s pulled from all of it — in his memoir “Golden Years,” hitting cabinets Nov. 4.